I Hate This Feeling!!

It really hurts when you are not heard
you are trying to say something you want to bring something out of you but you are not heard or they hear and they don't beleive you or just they don't care!!
you shout and yell very loud you are trying to show them where is the blood coming from but they don't want to listen
it is hard
i feel disappointment

how life would be if you get rid from your biggest fear??

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THIS QUOTE?

LIFE CAN BE FOUND ONLY IN THE PRESENT MOMENT, THE PAST IS GONE, THE FUTURE IS NOT YET HERE, AND IF WE DO NOT GO BACK TO OURSELVES IN THE PRESENT MOMENT WE CANNOT BE IN TOUCH WITH LIFE
THICH NHAT HANH

i belevie that we are a product of the past and the future they both motivate us to live our present,, but if we consume the time thinking about past and future we will wake up saying oh shoot i missed living my life and we will stay standing at one point and we will never move!!
past is gone , future is not here yet,, so live your present!

JORDAN

i am so curious to learn about how Jordan changes after spending 3 years away living in another country,,
i remember my house there in a new city that has few complete houses and other still building ones,
i remember the snow there which we don't have here
i remember the school pressure and the exams and the H.W and worrying all the time about the grades,,
i remember Ramadan and i miss it because we never feel it here,,
i miss the pray sound
i remember walking on the street and hearing dozens of comments from people about others and about me and who i walk with
i remember the messy traffic
i remember our neighbors and a good relation and connection with them

i have many positive thoughts about Jordan ,, but still i like where i live now more

The U.S is much more different than how Arab see it,, i am not judging if it is better or worse,, each living in Arabic culture or American culture has pros and cons, BUT what i like more in the American culture than Arabic culture

is

how people are free to express their feelings and their thoughts,, they are very able to define it and recognize it and honor it.

when you ask someone How are you or how are you feeling he or she gives the right for himself to say something more than FINE. there body language, Face Expression, and language are all used as tools to express feelings. BUT in an Arabic culture as i was telling my sister the other day when you talk to someone it is like you are talking to a STONE that has no feelings. Arabs are grown up learning that we have to Obey and listen but we can't talk!!

My First Post

This time i have to continue on blogging ,, each time i start i quit later,, but this time i won't,, hopefully,,
what motivates me ,, because i need to talk, to share, to get connected with others with more people in my life,,, i like the feeling of having my own space that i can write, talk, and share.